"Anxiety attack. No beach today-"

...is what I texted Stella mid-morning.
 
Rather than go through with some big awesome plans I had for an all day beach hike in Manly, I got side barred by an unexpected anxiety attack brought upon by the realization that I still have no place to live when I get to NYC in less than 3 weeks. That slightly stressful thought broke the seal to all other stressful thoughts that have ever existed and it was downhill from there. When the thought of a nature hike makes you anxious it's time to stay home- so I did.

(Years ago, my step-mom introduced me to the concept, "Where ever you go, there you are." The idea annoyed me then at 21, so you can imagine how I feel about it now.)

The relief I felt at staying home was so great, I began to reevaluate how I was "enjoying" my vacation. I had been adamant with myself about making this a "working vacation", meaning I would spend half the day writing and have the other half off to explore Sydney, be a tourist, whatever, etc. What I was finding, however, was vacationing was starting to feel like work, too. The pressure to see and do was outweighing the desire to see and do, especially since I've become so hyper-aware of how much time I have here before I leave for Melbourne, how much time I have in Melbourne, and how much time I have in Sydney once I'm back from Melbourne.

It's too much thinking. I'm done thinking. (I'm gonna try to be done. For little moments here and there I can definitely try to be done... Okay, I'll try to try.)

After my writing was done for the day, I took the opportunity to pay another visit to The Wolverine set and watch Jim work. (Swoon, movie-making, swoon...) I got the added bonus of getting to chat with Hugh Jackman once again and realizing he's not only the nicest actor I've ever met, but likely one of the nicest people ever to walk the earth. Ever. (He offered me his home in Melbourne for my trip! Then he remembered it was occupied, but MY GOD. I'd only known him a collective 10 minutes. Nice, nice, nice, nice, nice... I love him. )

The rest of my visit to set can be summed up in a few simple pictures...